The day started out great because my dear friend came to pick me up and we headed off to radiation. When I went in for the treatment the tech said to me "well Lynn, are you excited this is your last treatment to your under arm area, next week will just be the incision sight?" Normally, I am way more happy, but my energy is barely there and I think I just mumbled something like "Yeah". I just am so done with all of this.
When my friend dropped me off, she came in for a minute and gave me a gift. It was a PRAYER SHAWL that she had knitted for me. I have some talents, but KNITTING isn't one of them. What a beautiful piece of art work it was. She is amazingly talented. I do realize how long things like that take to make, and that made it even more special. I do know that even though I feel so drained and burnt to a crisp that .... I am blessed to have so many dear friends.
"A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart, and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words." ___author unknown
All of you remind me that I still am a fighter and that I can beat this, when some days...I wonder if I will make it or not! That's what friends are for, so I will try to remember how strong I am, even on days like these when I feel so tired, weak and sore. This same dear friend, reminded me that when it comes to making changes and getting better help for other women who face this disease, that I am the one for the job. She said "Lynn, you are the spoon, you are the spoon that is going to stir things up and get things done." I took that as a compliment. I know many people probably think I am a POT STIRRER but for some reason this being called a SPOON, sounded better.
“ It’s not the size of the dog in the fight, it’s the size of the fight in the dog.” Mark Twain
So thanks again for believing in me. I know I am almost at the end, actually only 5 days left, I am just going to try and hang on .