Thursday, February 26, 2009

I am not alone!!!

Today I woke up to snow, that was a surprise! We basically turned our TV off a few years ago and it has been a positive influence in our family. It is amazing how much more time we have for each other and for doing the things we love. The down side is that we don't always know the weather that is coming. I always check the news from my computer to stay up with the latest but I am gratefully, missing a lot of the garbage that was being brought into our home through the TV. I tease my friends that if there is going to be a Sunami or something, please call and warn me:) I felt like that this morning when I opened the window, didn't see that one coming. Better start checking the weather too each day!

A dear friend of mine dropped me off to treatment, took the kids to school and then picked me back up. I have to admit, I have the best friends in the world! What a treat it is to be with them and feel their sweet spirits and know how much they love and support me.

Most of the afternoon, I laid down because my neck and head hurt from trying to hold my arm away from my body. It is harder than it looks. The kids have rigged up putting two pillows under my left arm and then tying on a strap around my body to hold it in place. It is sorta working, but still I catch myself trying to hold up that arm. I didn't realize how much I used my left arm until you can't or don't want to use it. It was sore after my mastectomy but this is even a different type of a sore, because it is a burn! I will go to see my Physical Therapist tomorrow and see if maybe she has something better to offer me. I looked in the mirror again today and now not only saw, a tired worn out lady with hair that is always messed up from laying down so much. But now that lady has no prosthetic or padding on at all, so her whole left side is flat as can be and now she has 2 pillows tied to her side and a bright green strap around that and her waist...I am getting weirder looking every day!  Funny what you will do to survive. We were suppose to have a couple of people visit us tonight but I just didn't feel up to it. I am sure they understood. Lauren was sweet enough to make dinner and that is about all that I accomplished today. Hard to do much with 2 big pillows attached to your side!

After dinner I talked to a dear friend of mine for a while on the phone. What a treat to talk to her and hear her sweet voice again.It has been quite a while since we have talked. She has since had a baby and so we talked a lot about the joys and frustrations of motherhood and how much multi-tasking is involved. Motherhood truly is much tougher than it looks, but oh it is sooooooooooooo worth every minute of it!

"You don't really understand human nature unless you know why a child on a merry-go-round will wave at his parents every time around - and why his parents will always wave back. " ~William D. Tammeus

I also received in the mail a book from a dear friend back East. It is a book of quotes, (she must know how I love them) and it was just a treat to get in the mail. I really wouldn't mind doing a quote book some day myself, with all of Lauren's beautiful photos. truly grateful I am for them. Nice to know that none of us have to go through life alone!

"Friends are the most important ingredient in this recipe of life."

And so I think I will head to bed, wish I had more inspiring things to talk about today. Some days it is just getting through it. Not bad, not good ...just what it is! Thanks for being there!

"While life is meant to test, challenge, and strengthen us, if we are attempting to negotiate the twists and turns and ups and downs of mortality alone, we're doing it wrong. Mortality is a test, but it is an open book test. We have access not only to the divine text but to Him who authored it."  ___Sheri Dew

1 comment:

Amy said...

I really like that last quote by Sheri Dew! She is an inspiring lady just like you Mom! Hang in there, you'll make it through!