Waiting! Wondering! and Wishing!

 Waiting!  ( 9:00 a.m.)
Today I went with Lee to get a brain MRI. We have already seen 2 other Doctors ( Specialists ) since he has been home in the last 5 days. Still have no answers ...only suggestions for medications or injections that we could give him...not knowing if what is exactly wrong with him, we decided to hold until we feel right about something. One thing that we kept feeling like we needed to do was to have an MRI on his brain. So that is why we went ahead and scheduled that for today. As I sat there in the waiting room, I silently prayed for two very different things...one that we would find something that would help us figure out what the cause is for these attacks, that he has been having for over 3 years. Then in the very same prayer, I prayed that nothing would be terribly wrong with him...hoping it would be something that we could fix, and not some life long disease or problem. Then I realized that the prayer I had to say next was... to bless him and us, to be able to handle whatever the results are, and that we would know the next direction to go. I also prayed  that Lee would be able to feel some peace if we do get bad news. So I am still waiting, they told us that the DR should be reading the MRI and getting the results to us by 4:00 pm today. 
Need to stay busy and yet continue to pray that as his MOM, I will know what to say and do. I love this boy, it hurts me to see him go through all these tests with no answers. I want so bad to help him in some way and I know I can't. But I can be a strength to him and one who continues to remind him where to get his hope and faith from. My heart still hurts...I need to pray harder!
Wondering! ( 3:45 p.m. )
The nurse called and told us that she had the results back. I know from previous experience IF the nurse can tell you the information ...then it is good news or no news.  If she tells you that your results are in and to hold so she can put the Doctor on the line... then things are bad. She didn't say wait for the Doctor and then proceeded to tell us that everything on the MRI done on his brain looked good and nothing abnormal. I was relieved because there were a few big things that they were looking for, and they weren't there. Still I am worried how Lee is going to take it, when yet another test didn't make us any closer to getting an answer.
Wishing! ( 10:45 p.m. ) Now all I can do is wish and pray that we will get an impression or some thing to let us know what avenue to take next. Until then, I am going to count this as a blessing, his brain looks good...that is no small thing!
Need to go to bed and relax, kind of a stressful day!
Good night dear friends!  

 

 “I remember my mother’s prayers and they have always followed me. They have clung to me all my life.”  ~Abraham Lincoln

 “Motherhood is near to divinity. It is the highest, holiest service to be assumed by mankind.”  ~Howard W. Hunter

Waiting!

   I love Sundays, maybe because they have always been our family day. No matter if we have had a non- stop and busy week, we always knew we would be together on Sunday. I have to say, I do realize I get more homesick for my kids who live away from home, on Sundays too.
    I think though the best thing about Sundays is I get my spiritual batteries recharged. I feel like we are focused on what really matters in life, and that makes the coming week a lot easier to handle and prepare for.
   One principle that I learned today was about Waiting, particularly about Waiting on the Lord. It was an article that I was reading which talked about how important it is to wait upon the Lord. The scripture that was mentioned was Isaiah 40:31 "But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings on eagles;they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint"
Still, it seems as if we all think of waiting as a time of anxiety and anticipation. Some times we get frustrated and impatient when we have to wait. I think many times we all might feel that way, but especially when things are hard and painful. During those trials, time seems to stand still, is that the type of waiting that Isaiah was talking about? The Hebrew word translated as wait also means "hope for" and "anticipate"
   When you think of it that way, then it makes more sense. If you believe that you are a child of God, that He is literally our Heavenly Father who loves us, then we can know that everything that happens...happens for a reason. Some of the greatest lessons I have learned in my life...have come from some of the hardest things I ever had to do; and many times after waiting for what seemed a long time before I understood their meaning or purpose. But I had a strong faith and hope that things would work out. There were many times I had to wait to know why I went through some of the hard lessons that I did. When I think of waiting and hoping for the Lord to help me become equal to the test is a whole lot better, than blaming others for my problems or always asking the Lord " Why me?" over and over again. I think changing our attitude and learning to wait upon the Lord, truly believing He will never leave us alone or let us down, is a whole lot better and a more positive way to live also.
    I have to admit, when I have waited and gone to my Heavenly Father during my darkest times, He has renewed my strength, I can never deny that, and I am eternally grateful because of it.
Good night dear friends!

  "Never was a faithful prayer lost. Some prayers have a longer voyage than others, but then they return with their richer lading at last, so that the praying soul is a gainer by waiting for an answer."  ~ William Gurnall


  “God is eagerly waiting for the chance to answer your prayers and fulfill your dreams, just as he always has. But he can't if you don't pray, and he can't if you don't dream. In short, he can't if you don't believe.”
~Jeffrey R. Holland
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Day 11 and 12

Not sure why I can't get this wording to go to the top but until I can figure it out... this is the best I can do. The first photo is of Colorado and the second photo is Shirley and I just before leaving the wonderful motel we had for our last day. We had a great breakfast and are now on our way from Grand Junction, Colorado to Lehi, Utah. It is only 4.5 hours away, so this should be a piece of cake. ( or I should say a piece of fruit...that's legal :)
Third photo is of Shirley showing off that she has a few more of her almonds left, I ate mine too fast...didn't savor them like I should have. Shirley said,  "Lynn, I just want you to know that there is no one else in the world who would travel across the US with you eating only, veggies and hummus, seaweed and fruit". That's probably true!  She and I did our Weight Watchers the whole way, I am praying that she lost weight, so she won't kill me for counting our all of our food and keep track of our points each day! :) Hey, we had black licorice for a treat...I don't know what she is complaining about? 
Then the next photo is the beautiful scenery of Utah, going through the Spanish Fork canyons. Then of course here we all in the last photo of Shirley and I showing you that we made it  home safe, from our 12 day across the United States Road Trip 2012... it was full of laughter, fun and a lot of Sister/Best Friend bonding time. Thank you Shirley for asking me to go...it was well worth it! I think doing anything with the ones you love, makes life worth it.
Day 12...I am sitting in the airport waiting for my flight to leave. Since I have been here I have watched the departure boards tell me 4 times that my flight is delayed again and again! I was so hoping to see my granddaughters tonight when they were going to pick me up with Jeff. Oh well, I still have 3 hours to just sit back, relax, read, crochet and make a couple of new friends! I guess things could be worse. Thanks for following our road trip with us, it really was a trip to remember! Now that I think of it, wasn't I waiting 3 hours on my way to Salt Lake? I am starting to see a pattern here! Good night dear friends!


" Friendship isn't a big thing - it's a million little things."  ~Author Unknown

"What is a friend?  A single soul dwelling in two bodies."  ~Aristotle

"I like her because she smiles at me and means it. " ~Anonymous

What I learned today...

I am always so grateful for the chance to be healthy enough to go to church. Jeff and I only went for part of it ( he is still trying to get better from his pneumonia, and I am still trying to NOT catch it ) but I did learn something during that little bit of time. The theme today was about patience. The speakers gave some great points about it. I will only share a few of them, especially the ones that touched my heart. In a world where we want what we want and we want it now, I think that this topic is something we all could be the better for...if you remember it and work on it!

pa·tience  –noun

1.the quality of being patient, as the bearing of provocation, annoyance, misfortune, or pain, without complaint, loss of temper, irritation, or the like.

2.an ability or willingness to suppress restlessness or annoyance when confronted with delay: to have patience with a slow learner.

3.quiet, steady perseverance; even-tempered care; diligence: to work with patience.

—Synonyms
1. composure, stability, self-possession; submissiveness, sufferance. Patience, endurance, fortitude, stoicism imply qualities of calmness, stability, and persistent courage in trying circumstances

"A certain amount of impatience may be useful to stimulate and motivate us to action. However, I believe that a lack of patience is a major cause of the difficulties and unhappiness in the world today. Too often, we are impatient with ourselves, with our family members and friends, and even with the Lord. We seem to demand what we want right now, regardless of whether we have earned it, whether it would be good for us, or whether it is right. Some seek immediate gratification or numbing of every impulse by turning to alcohol and drugs, while others seek instant material wealth by questionable investments or by dishonesty, with little or no regard for the consequences. Perhaps the practice of patience is more difficult, yet more necessary, now than at any previous time." ~Joseph B. Wirthlin

"We should learn to be patient with ourselves. Recognizing our strengths and our weaknesses, we should strive to use good judgment in all of our choices and decisions, make good use of every opportunity, and do our best in every task we undertake. We should not be unduly discouraged nor in despair at any time when we are doing the best we can. Rather, we should be satisfied with our progress even though it may come slowly at times." ~ Joseph B. Wirthlin

"Patience sometimes needs to be acquired"

"We need to take action in the midst of our patience, not just simply wait for something to happen"