Laughter the best medicine!

Today Shirley just hung out today and laughed and laughed. It seems like we don't have to do anything to have fun! Stayed low today, still breathing better so I am grateful for that.
Good night dear friends!

The Power of Words

Well in just the last hour, my body aches have subsided...what a relief!  On top of a fever, trouble breathing, non-stop coughing, the body aches... have been the worst! I actually didn't do anything for over 4 days now. Not watch a movie, listen to music, read or walk around even very much. I can tell Jeff gets really worried about me when he sees me doing nothing. I am not a "do nothing" type of girl. I draw, sew or crochet while watching a movie. My hands are always busy. But I have been hurting so bad...I literally have just laid around and moaned. Sad ...I know!
But I am for this moment, feeling a bit better so I thought I had better write my blog right now. This story  probably stuck out to me because it was about how powerful words are. I really agree, I myself have to be careful on how I let other people's words hurt or help me. I am a bit tenderhearted, I guess you could say.
It is a great story for anyone! Hope you enjoy it!
Night dear friends!

The Wise Sage 

  There once was a wise sage who wandered the countryside. One day, as he passed near a village, he was approached by a woman who told him of a sick child nearby. She beseeched him to help this child.
So the sage came to the village, and a crowd gathered around him, for such a man was a rare sight. One woman brought the sick child to him, and he said a prayer over her.
"Do you really think your prayer will help her, when medicine has failed?" yelled a man from the crowd.
"You know nothing of such things! You are a stupid fool!" said the sage to the man.
The man became very angry with these words and his face grew hot and red. He was about to say something, or perhaps strike out, when the sage walked over to him and said: "If one word has such power as to make you so angry and hot, may not another have the power to heal?"
And thus, the sage healed two people that day.  ~ Unknown

"Language does have the power to change reality. Therefore, treat your words as the mighty instruments they are - to heal, to bring into being, to nurture, to cherish, to bless, to forgive." - Daphne Rose Kingma

Nightmares verses Dreams

It has been nice, for the last 4 weeks I have finally gotten something in me, to help me sleep. It is not addictive, and I finally think that I can wean off it soon. I was so sleep deprived, I wondered if I would ever get out of that STAYING AT THE CEILING stage? It took quite some time to get the right thing that would work for me. One or two of the things I tried, did nothing and then again, some of them really threw me for a loop and I could hardly function for a whole day. I hated experimenting with them but I was desperate. I just do not like the feeling of having medicine in me. I would rather do anything else first, then has to be a last resort. After not sleeping for days...it became just that.

I have noticed that I still dream, but much of the time, it feels like a really deep sleep. Haven't really had much of that ( DEEP SLEEP ), for most of my life. So I am counting my blessing with each night, I get it.
I didn't like to sleep as a kid, I always felt like I needed to stay awake and alert. I have since learned, that is pretty normal reactions for a survivor of abuse. Going to sleep makes you vulnerable,and that is certainly something that don't want to be any more. I also struggled going to sleep because of my Nightmares, I used to have a lot of them. They were so bad for many years, that it was a real struggle for me to even want to go to bed. But a Nightmare is rare now and usually only happens, after I have done some counseling with a victim or if someone asks me details about my past. So I will take Dreams over Nightmares... any day.

I could have used one of my own ONCE UPON A TIME MONSTERS back then. Each Monster we created... is named and has this story below to go with it. If I am sending them to someone fighting with Cancer, then I send the other story with the monster. We have about 11 different monsters so far, they really grow on  you, you know?  Need to go and get some of the D-E-E-P S-L-E-E-P !!!!!

Once upon a time there was a monster under my bed.
So I shivered and screamed and pulled the covers over my head.
All of a sudden, that monster came out--and do you know what he said?
"can I be your friend and sleep with you instead?"
Congratulations! You've just adopted a ONCE UPON A TIME MONSTER!
Now you'll always have a friend to help you be brave and you'll never be alone again!

OR...

Cancer can be scary and I know you are afraid.
Just cuddle up with me and try your best to be brave.
If it helps to ease your worry, go ahead and change the name.
Turn cancer into recnac and see if you feel the same.
Make me your recnac monster; look at my silly face.
I hope I make you smile as you take me from place to place.

"Courage can't see around corners, but goes around them anyway."  ~Mignon McLaughlin,

"I have had dreams, and I have had nightmares. I overcame the nightmares because of my dreams"

"An optimist expects his dreams to come true; a pessimist expects his nightmares to"  ~ Dr. Laurence J. Peter