6 years ago today!

Six years ago today I had my mastectomy, I actually had it at 2:30 till 4:00. I still remember every moment about that day. Oh how scared I was, how worried I was on how this was going to effect my family and the rest of my life . But it really wasn't until after the surgery that the fears, discouragement and pain began to set in. It is true, that some things you just have to go through in life. There is are lessons in everything that happens to you, I truly believe that, but oh some life's experiences are tough and this was one of my toughest ones.

Now here I am 6 years later and I finally get to have good news from my last MRI, and my family is doing well.

 

And I have a job that I love and more friends that I can count, plus a family that I am so proud of and thankful for. How grateful I am for my life. I am grateful for each day of those 6 years, that I have had. Many of them taught me so many things, and I still am learning each day.

So this November 12th, I am glad to be happy to where I am, doing what I am doing and understanding just a little more about life's lessons. ( Just for the record, that is not my quilt behind me...but oh how I wished it was! )

                                                 

Finally!

A week ago today I went to my check up. This one is an MRI with a IV which has a contrast that runs through you body to check for cancer. I haven't done one for a couple of years, it is a tough test to do, so I have tried all month to get the courage up to finally go and get it done.

It actually went better than I thought and they have improved things since the last time, so it didn't last as long so I was grateful for that. One of my dear friend went with me and when I left ...they told me that I would have my results in 24 - 48 hours.

 I waited for Weds and Thursday to hear results but nothing. By Friday I called my Doctor's office to see if they had any news and they didn't. I prayed that I could enjoy the weekend and not worry about it. I reminded myself over and over again that I know that my Heavenly Father is in charge and to continue to rely on my faith in Him. Plus, if all else fails I tried to remember what my Grandma to say..." No news, is usually Good News".

Last night Jeff brought in the mail and handed me a letter from BMI where I had the MRI done. Here what it said...

Dear Lynn Woodard, 

Thank you for selecting us for your breast imaging study. We are pleased to tell you that your breast imaging study is normal/benign ( not cancer ).

I have had cancer twice in my life in my life and since those diagnosis, I have always had calls with my reports... not letters. So I guess this is a first and a good first one to say that.

For those of you who prayed for me, thank you, thank you, thank you. 

Knowing I have friends and family who love and support me, means the world to me.

Good Night dear friends!

Waiting! Wondering! and Wishing!

 Waiting!  ( 9:00 a.m.)
Today I went with Lee to get a brain MRI. We have already seen 2 other Doctors ( Specialists ) since he has been home in the last 5 days. Still have no answers ...only suggestions for medications or injections that we could give him...not knowing if what is exactly wrong with him, we decided to hold until we feel right about something. One thing that we kept feeling like we needed to do was to have an MRI on his brain. So that is why we went ahead and scheduled that for today. As I sat there in the waiting room, I silently prayed for two very different things...one that we would find something that would help us figure out what the cause is for these attacks, that he has been having for over 3 years. Then in the very same prayer, I prayed that nothing would be terribly wrong with him...hoping it would be something that we could fix, and not some life long disease or problem. Then I realized that the prayer I had to say next was... to bless him and us, to be able to handle whatever the results are, and that we would know the next direction to go. I also prayed  that Lee would be able to feel some peace if we do get bad news. So I am still waiting, they told us that the DR should be reading the MRI and getting the results to us by 4:00 pm today. 
Need to stay busy and yet continue to pray that as his MOM, I will know what to say and do. I love this boy, it hurts me to see him go through all these tests with no answers. I want so bad to help him in some way and I know I can't. But I can be a strength to him and one who continues to remind him where to get his hope and faith from. My heart still hurts...I need to pray harder!
Wondering! ( 3:45 p.m. )
The nurse called and told us that she had the results back. I know from previous experience IF the nurse can tell you the information ...then it is good news or no news.  If she tells you that your results are in and to hold so she can put the Doctor on the line... then things are bad. She didn't say wait for the Doctor and then proceeded to tell us that everything on the MRI done on his brain looked good and nothing abnormal. I was relieved because there were a few big things that they were looking for, and they weren't there. Still I am worried how Lee is going to take it, when yet another test didn't make us any closer to getting an answer.
Wishing! ( 10:45 p.m. ) Now all I can do is wish and pray that we will get an impression or some thing to let us know what avenue to take next. Until then, I am going to count this as a blessing, his brain looks good...that is no small thing!
Need to go to bed and relax, kind of a stressful day!
Good night dear friends!  

 

 “I remember my mother’s prayers and they have always followed me. They have clung to me all my life.”  ~Abraham Lincoln

 “Motherhood is near to divinity. It is the highest, holiest service to be assumed by mankind.”  ~Howard W. Hunter