Waiting! ( 9:00 a.m.)
Today I went with Lee to get a brain MRI. We have already seen 2 other Doctors ( Specialists ) since he has been home in the last 5 days. Still have no answers ...only suggestions for medications or injections that we could give him...not knowing if what is exactly wrong with him, we decided to hold until we feel right about something. One thing that we kept feeling like we needed to do was to have an MRI on his brain. So that is why we went ahead and scheduled that for today. As I sat there in the waiting room, I silently prayed for two very different things...one that we would find something that would help us figure out what the cause is for these attacks, that he has been having for over 3 years. Then in the very same prayer, I prayed that nothing would be terribly wrong with him...hoping it would be something that we could fix, and not some life long disease or problem. Then I realized that the prayer I had to say next was... to bless him and us, to be able to handle whatever the results are, and that we would know the next direction to go. I also prayed that Lee would be able to feel some peace if we do get bad news. So I am still waiting, they told us that the DR should be reading the MRI and getting the results to us by 4:00 pm today.
Need to stay busy and yet continue to pray that as his MOM, I will know what to say and do. I love this boy, it hurts me to see him go through all these tests with no answers. I want so bad to help him in some way and I know I can't. But I can be a strength to him and one who continues to remind him where to get his hope and faith from. My heart still hurts...I need to pray harder!
Wondering! ( 3:45 p.m. )
The nurse called and told us that she had the results back. I know from previous experience IF the nurse can tell you the information ...then it is good news or no news. If she tells you that your results are in and to hold so she can put the Doctor on the line... then things are bad. She didn't say wait for the Doctor and then proceeded to tell us that everything on the MRI done on his brain looked good and nothing abnormal. I was relieved because there were a few big things that they were looking for, and they weren't there. Still I am worried how Lee is going to take it, when yet another test didn't make us any closer to getting an answer.
Wishing! ( 10:45 p.m. ) Now all I can do is wish and pray that we will get an impression or some thing to let us know what avenue to take next. Until then, I am going to count this as a blessing, his brain looks good...that is no small thing!
Need to go to bed and relax, kind of a stressful day!
Good night dear friends!
“I remember my mother’s prayers and they have always followed me. They have clung to me all my life.” ~Abraham Lincoln
“Motherhood is near to divinity. It is the highest, holiest service to be assumed by mankind.” ~Howard W. Hunter