Saturday, March 14, 2009

Rough Saturday

Now I am not sure if I did too much yesterday or just because of this rash... but I have been tired, since I got up. I have laid down twice already and still I feel ready to head for bed. The rash is much better today, it still itches and is very tender but much of the swelling has gone down. So maybe by the fact that I wasn't itching it as much today, helped. I had a friend of ours today who is a DR check it out to see if he had any idea what this rash was caused from. When I told one of the kids where I went, they asked me if that was really embarrassing to have a friend who is a DR, look at the scar? I simply said NO, maybe because every day in this whole cancer ordeal I have had to have my shirt off. I think after a while the embarrassment subsides and you just feel like another body having tests, and surgery. The other thing I have noticed is that I don't really feel like a woman any more. Maybe some day that will come back but I just don't feel feminine at all, the whole area is just a bad memory. I am working on changing that because I realize that isn't very healthy but it is the real feeling for now.

We continue to have so many dear friends stop and drop off stuff and call and send cards, I don't really have the chance to stay DOWN too long. Especially when you know that many people love and believe in you, and keep you in their prayers. So I am sure that this is just another bump in the road, I will take it slow but I will make it over it and hopefully be better and stronger because of it. Thanks for being such a great cheering section.



"All children are artists. The problem is how to remain an artist once he grows up"  ______Pablo  Picasso


"Nothing exists until or unless it is observed. An artist is making something exist by observing it. And his hope for other people is that they will also make it exist by observing it. I call it "creative observation." Creative viewing."  ____William S. Burroughs


No matter how bad my day is, when Angie comes to visit...I feel better. Of course her favorite thing is to create (funny that is my outlet too!) This is a photo of a person to her...maybe the angels aren't that far away? When I try to see life through her eyes, I always feel more happy! Thanks Angie!   Love ya, Nana

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