I have to say that yesterday was a very different Mother's Day. We were by ourselves, we got to see Amy and her family the night before, for Angie's Birthday and so Sunday was very quiet. I read the emails and the texts from my kids and that made me cry...happy tears of course, because I just feel so blessed to be their Mom. Still I was lonely and wishing I could just jump on a plane and go give little Kai a hug and visit with them. But we got to Skype and that helped a ton. Kai even started walking on Mother's Day, and we got to see that too! Thank goodness for the computer! We also were able to Skype with Lee and Lauren also, I didn't feel quite as lonely after that.
Mother's Days are always a bit of emotion for all different reasons for each person. And even for the same person they can be different at different seasons in your life. My Mom has been gone for over 11 years now and still on Mother's Day...I can remember how excited I would get on Mother's Day to give her my homemade gifts (that we made in school ) and to go up front and sing to her in church! I still miss her terribly bad on Mother's Day! I also can remember when the kids were little, I just prayed that I would survive Mother's Day without getting upset or frustrated with them. Then as always they would stand up in front of church and sing their little Mother's Day songs, and my heart would melt. Some Mother's Days I felt a bit of guilt, for not having the relationship that I thought I should have for one or more of my kids at the time. Sometimes I felt guilt because I didn't think I measured up as a Mom ( compared to Other Perfect Mothers out there ), which I finally realized...don't really exist! Wish I would have know that one sooner! :)
But when I read this letter... I thought that certainly was how I felt most of my time as their Mother.
Motherhood is one of the hardest jobs I have ever had, and yet the greatest one I have ever had! I wouldn't trade it for the WORLD!