Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Now Playing...

It almost sounds like a movie when I say that I got to see Mandy 2 today! Actually it is a real life movie....but of my life. My prosthetic is named Mandy. I am not sure why I did that? Maybe it is my twisted humor or I was just got tired of writing and saying the word Prosthetic? Either way, Mandy was my 2nd and best prosthetic that I had, the first one was Sally and she and I weren't together long. Mandy and I go everywhere together and because of her, I was able to go back into life with much more confidence and peace after my mastectomy. She is a one of the newest type of prosthetic out there. A few months ago I noticed a few things that were going wrong with her and so when I took her back to the shop I got her from, they said she needed to be returned and that I would get a new replacement one soon. So a friend and I went to Marysville this morning, to pick up Mandy 2 at ...Viginia's Feminine Boutique. They do an amazing job at the fittings and they are very knowledgeable and compassionate. It is definitely worth the drive. Here is there web site... Virginia's Feminine Boutique

I realized today how grateful I am for those people who have developed the prosthetics, in the olden days, they use to make their own with rice, or herbs, even water. Yes, we have come a long way.

I am so glad that I am now a little less self conscience that I was a year ago. I seem to be more comfortable in my own skin now. I don't really even let anyone ( other than family ) see me without my prosthetic but still, I feel much better about myself than I did a year ago. I know I have a long way to go, but I only hope it continues to get easier and better each year.

Many of you have watched me and all the ups and downs that I have gone through in the past year and half, with cancer. Thank you for your love and support. It has been a hard, and yet it has taught me so many different things, things that I am sure I could not have learned in any other way. In some ways I feel like a better person since I have had cancer twice, and yet it has been one of the worst things I had to ever go through. Cancer gives you a perspective, that can be life changing... if you let it. I guess the greatest thing that I have come to learn is...God is in charge and I need to learn to trust in His wisdom and timing. And with that knowledge, to then strive to learn, enjoy and live every moment ( no matter how many I have left). Quality is a big thing with me now, I am more worried about quality of life than quantity ( especially since, that is the only area that I can control anyway! )

So the quote that keeps coming to my mind tonight about life and lessons of life is this one by Maria Robinson... "Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending."

As a daughter, sister, wife, mother, grandmother and friend, I know it is important to show everyone that I am not going to quit, but continue to learn and grow from each experience that happens to me. I need to show them that I trust the Lord, and that I am leaving things into His hands.  I don't want to miss one moment with my family and friends. Yes, life is like a movie ...but I can at least, make sure how it is going to end! (within reason!)

"Don't wait until everything is just right. It will never be perfect. There will always be challenges, obstacles and less than perfect condition. So what. Get started now. With each step you take, you will grow stronger and stronger, more and more skilled, more and more self-confident and more and more successful."  ~ Mark Victor Hansen

"If we're growing, we're always going to be out of our comfort zone."   ~John Maxwell quotes

"The purpose of life is a life of purpose."     ~Robert Byrne





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