Monday, October 5, 2009


Today I took my son Lee to the chiropractor for a catch in his back. It actually was pinching a nerve and so for the last couple of days he has been in a lot of pain. I asked my chiropractor once if they all inheredited my back problems and he said "Yes, it sure looks like it" . I feel bad but I realize that I guess that is just life. I know I certainly don't judge other moms when I see them wearing glasses and I see all their little kids behind them are wearing them too. I should go easier on myself I guess, but I just hate to see my kids in pain. Of course I have been in pain for so many years in my life, I am used to it but I certainly would rather have it than watch one of my kids suffer. Lauren had to be adjust for a rib out and then I needed an adjustment too. I have to admit, I am very tired of being in pain. I really want to feel better before I head out on this trip.

I also wrote a letter today to my insurance company to see if they will reconsider covering the Lymphedema compression pump suit that was suggested by my Physical Therapist to get for my swelling. I am trying to wear my compression sleeve more but now that the lymphedema is going down my arm, it is a lot more painful to wear. I need to get use to it because I am going to have to wear it often during this trip.

So today I will just take one step at a time and realize that at least I am still moving. I need to try and enjoy this trip even though I am still hurting and have a few other things to worry about. My life has never been perfect, I don't really think anyone's is. I hope that I get this compression suit so at least there is one less thing to worry about every day. Thanks for walking this journey with me and for always being there.

"Acceptance of one's life has nothing to do with resignation; it does not mean running away from the struggle. On the contrary, it means accepting it as it comes, with all the handicaps of heredity, of suffering, of psychological complexes and injustices."   ~ Paul Tournier


“Don’t wait until everything is just right. It will never be perfect. There will always be challenges, obstacles and less than perfect conditions. So what. Get started now. With each step you take, you will grow stronger and stronger, more and more skilled, more and more self-confident and more and more successful.”

"Life consists not simply in what heredity and environment do to us but in what we make out of what they do to us."   ~ Harry Emerson Fosdick

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