I am sure that some of you would laugh to hear how grateful that I am to get a break, because my life isn't that busy or hectic anyway. But for some reason it has been nice to just not have to worry about anything and just relax. My sister-in-law watches over me to make sure that I don't over do it. Today was our first day that we didn't have any plans and that was fun. We just went window shopping at a country village place and that was nice. Some times (since I am a homebody) I think that I should be doing something productive. Relaxing is really hard for me to do, it always has been. But I realize that it is important for me to learn, my mind goes a hundred miles an hour and so learning to relax is much more than a job than one might think. Actually Jeff laughs at me because that has NEVER been a problem for him, he said that he has mastered that years ago! :)
So today while we were out, we went into this one store that was country home decorating, which was by far my favorite place. I love the feeling of being HOME and alot of it makes me feel like my grandmother's house (the one that was safe) and that is such a good feeling and memory. We found a lot of quotes that were neat wall hangings and so my niece told me to write them down so that I would have them for my blog :) Although some of them did not tell who the author was and I know if I try to go google it, then I will lose this whole post...like I did 3 times last night. So if you want to know who said it ...hopefully you can google it.
I think my favorite quote was this one...
"NEVER TAKE LIFE SERIOUSLY.
NOBODY GETS OUT ALIVE ANYWAY!"
I do think that is a great one for me to learn. It just struck me so funny. Yes, we all are going to die, but what I have learned over the years with my illnesses is that... HOW YOU LIVE is more important. So I am trying to remember that. I love being alive and able to experience life each day, yes it has been hard and I keep trying to remember to count my blessings and look forward to things. Making goals and thinking about the future was very hard for me just a few months ago, so ... maybe I am making progress?
When I get home I have to go for my 6 month check up and mammogram. I got the reminder before I left home, and I just told Jeff that I couldn't handle that right now. I just wanted to forget about all that and go on my vacation. So that is what I am doing...I AM TAKING A VACATION FROM MY PROBLEMS, I am sure that they will be there waiting for me when I get home. :)
I go out back each day and just sit in the sunshine and look up at the beautiful mountains (like you see in this photo), they are amazing and that is one thing that I never get tired of looking at. Yes, I have a lot of things to be thankful for and so I will try to remember not to worry about anything and just enjoy life. I have to admit though, I am missing Jeff and the kids back home. I obviously haven't conquered completely just doing something only for me. I keep thinking, how fun it would be if Lee saw this, or Lauren could take a photo of that. If Angie would like this park or Amy would like the ideas in this store. And of course I wouldn't mind at all having my best friend holding my hand along the way.
Oh, my sister-in-law just gave me a quote book...where has that been? So here are a few ones to think about. Thank you for being such an important part of my life and learning.
"IT IS NOT THE MOUNTAIN THAT WE CONQUER BUT OURSELVES" ~ Edmond Hillary
"IT TAKES COURAGE TO GROW UP AND BECOME WHO YOU REALLY ARE"
~ E.E. Cummings
"THIS WOULD BE A GREAT TIME TO FREEZE FOR A FEW YEARS" ~ Unknown