This was quote was totally meant for me today. For the past couple of months I have been dealing with a person who really doesn't like me. I don't know why, and every time I even try to be nice or start up a conversation, you could feel the coldness come from their eyes. Since we have no prior history together, I can't imagine that I did something to them, but still the feeling of being unaccepted or judged isn't a good feeling. I have talked to a couple of dear friends about it and they have given me their opinion on how I should address it.
Now one would think at the ripe old age of 53 that things like this wouldn't shake me, but it does. I realize that I need to be more upfront about this with her and quit feeling so undervalued. I still have to be around her, but need to hold my own and quit letting this negative feeling, make me doubt myself. She just so happens to be very good at the thing I am suppose to be doing. I on the other hand have strengths in many areas, this is NOT one of them.
But tonight I realized I need to pray about it more and talk about it less. Every time you get negative energy from someone, that is bad. You need to either stay away from people who give out that kind of energy, or learn how to just go on, understanding the battle is between them and them only... not me.
For some reason, I got caught off guard and haven't been holding my own lately. I have had more self doubt and feelings of inadequacies. There are other things going on in my life that are painful right now, so I think I just let my guard down and baam... did I ever get hit with it hard.
Funny that these are things and principles that I have known my whole life, still there are days when you will be struggling in more than one way and if you aren't careful, those people who aren't happy with themselves or their lives, will somehow try to make sure you feel as miserable as they are. But only you can let them make you feel that way...it is my choice, and I truly need to pray more about it, because the bad energy is taking a toll on my body.
I guess LIFE LESSONS are never going to stop coming, well at least until I figure some of them out...once and for all!
Good night dear friends!