I woke up a bit earlier than usual this morning, because I had to eat my breakfast by a certain time and then fast from then on ...until the scan. Since yesterday I was only allowed to eat Cheese, Meat or Eggs, that was a switch, I don't tend to eat a lot of any of those but... just for a couple of days I could do it. After breakfast I decided I should just go back to bed and kill some time before I have to leave. Then I realized that I probably should do something productive, instead of just trying to kill time. So I began my scripture study. Now that is something I usually do in the morning during or right after my breakfast, but today I took on a new type of reading...I was searching. Funny how you tend to search and ponder things more, when you are discouraged or scared. I have been both of those for quite some time since I have been sick.
As years past, I have found such comfort and hope in the scriptures that I am always sad when I forget to go there first. I try to figure it out myself, I look at only today, and how bad or sick I feel. As I was reading and studying in other sources too, I found this wonderful quote " When our day -to -day challenges loom before us, it is natural to focus on the hear and now. But prophets have admonished us to remember the eternal perspective. Only then can we successfully navigate mortality." So true! I need to remember to look at the whole picture! Things look so much better that way. I was reading in the Old Testament in the book of Deuteronomy 11:18 where Moses admonished tangible objects such as Frontlets, to be worn on the people as a reminder of God's goodness. When I looked up the word "frontlets" in the Bible dictionary, it tells that they were scriptures and prophet's words written on strips of parchment and rolled up or put in tiny boxes and worn on their arms or foreheads. One would think for sure you would remember the words of God and the prophets, if you them strapped on your head, right between your eyes every day! :) Then in the book of Joshua 4:21-24 it talks about where the Lord directs Joshua ( who succeeded Moses) to have the people gather 12 stones and keep them with them. And when their children ask what the stones mean, then they could share with them, the miracles that God had given them in their lives. They would share their testimony of how mighty their God is.
I have to admit, I love the Old Testament, I love the stories and the symbols and things that they used to teach and remind themselves of the goodness of God.
When I served my mission years ago, I loved being able to share my testimony of the Love of God. In a world of so many troubles and concerns, it was great to tell the people who wanted to hear...that there is a purpose why we are here on earth. In a book titled Why Did This Happen to Me? by Ray Pritchard. He says: "Sometimes we will face things for which there is no earthly explanation. In those moments we need to erect a sign that reads, 'Quiet: God at Work.' Meanwhile, hold on, child of God. Keep believing. Don't quit. Don't give up. Let God do His work in you. The greatest tragedy is to miss what God wants to teach us through our troubles."
This sign is what I needed to have on my mirror the last few weeks.
I know that my Heavenly Father loves me. I know that I have to have this scan today to see if there is Cancer in my body. I know that I can handle with His help, anything that comes my way. I pray it isn't Cancer... but then again, we need to know what we are up against, I need to get better... my body is responding slowly and sluggishly, we need to know why.
So I will go to this appointment today, I will drink that nasty shake that has the dye in it for the exam. I will wait as they pump more dye through a IV hooked up to a machine to push it through my whole body, and then next go through the radiation... and then we will wait and pray.
Thank you for your love, prayers and support. It truly means more to me than I can ever express adequately in words. The love of family and friends, is more powerful than one can hardly imagine. I love you, I appreciate you and I hope that I can be a good example to you, of the faith that I have. I have been through many dark days, and I am sure that I will have many more but;
I hope by my life, you will know that God lives and that our future...is as bright as our Faith!
Thanks for always being there.
Have a great day!
I found my quotes and scriptures from here: