Tuesday, August 10, 2010


"How do people make it through life without a sister?"  ~Sara Corpening
I have thought about this quote/question many times in my life. What would it have been like to have a sister? Someone who I could have confessed my deepest fears too, someone who truly understood what my life was like?
I wondered even what she would have looked like? Then many times. even though I missed having a sister to share everything with, I was grateful that I didn't have one, chances were great that she would have been abused too, and I wouldn't wish that on anyone!
So I have spent the rest of my life finding sisters, in the friends that I have made. I truly think we are as close as sisters and I know that is rare, so I am grateful for those relationships. But also I was blessed to have daughters, who have grown up to be my best friends too.

"A daughter is a little girl who grows up to be a friend."  ~Author Unknown
Now I have granddaughters too, so I have to admit, I have been richly blessed.

Today I woke up and had breakfast with my youngest daughter Lauren who is home from college. I had forgotten how much I missed her smile and sweet compassionate spirit. She was concerned, that I had yet another night of ...not much sleep. Then I got to talk to my sweet daughter-in-law over the phone, oh how much I love that girl, she is truly my daughter and I am grateful that Bradley found her! It always brightens my day to talk to her.

Next, I called a dear friend back East, who had just had surgery to see how she was doing.I wished I lived closer so that I could be with her.
Later in my day, Amy and the girls came over...somehow I always feel better when I see them. Right before my Doctor appointment, I had two dear friends call and check up on me. They both knew I was nervous about doing this nerve test on my hand. They themselves had already had the same test, and told me after all that I had been through, this test should be nothing.

"Help one another, is part of the religion of sisterhood."  ~Louisa May Alcott

I had what they call a Nerve Conductor Test today at my Spine Specialist office. It was to determine if the pain and weakness in my right hand is from Carpal Tunnel Syndrome. It was a different test to say the least, they do about 8 needles  up and down your arm to test to see how the nerves react. Each time, he had to move the needle around in there and go pretty deep, to get the results he needed. That hurt, could I stand it?    Yes, but I don't know anyone that likes a needle moved around...while it's is in you! He also did a shock test up and down my arm,( sorta felt like if you have ever been shocked from an electrical outlet) he started out very mild and got stronger, did that hurt? The big ones did, but it was bearable.
I didn't really want to find out that I had Carpal Tunnel Syndrome, but yet I did want to find some answers from this test. The Dr. was shocked ( no pun intended ), because he thought for sure it was Carpal Tunnel ...but as far as he could tell, I didn't have that and he was puzzled at why my hand is having so much trouble. He told me that he could send me to another specialist, or we could wait and see what results I get from my new Physical Therapist. I told him, I will wait and see. She hasn't even evaluated my neck yet, maybe she will have some answers for me.
So that was my day today, not very exciting but I guess the process of elimination is one way to do it? I guess, I was just hoping to be one step closer to helping me get out of some pain, some where, but not today! I am trying YET ANOTHER dosage of my medicine tonight, I pray that I will sleep and yet not be groggy all day tomorrow. Am I asking too much? Sometimes I wonder?
Thank you for being my friends! When I count all the women in my life who have been like Sisters to me...I am feel pretty good about my life, and how lucky I am to have so many SISTERS! So "Good night Sis!" ...I always wanted to say that! :)

"Don't walk in front of me and be my leader, don't walk behind me and be my follower, but walk beside me and be my Sister."

"Sisterhood is not a destination, but a journey."  ~ Unknown

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