I was grateful that Lauren and I were able to get away for a few days and visit with our friends in Sequim. Like I told you all we did was relax and enjoy the slower pace of life. I jokingly mention to my friend, that we had to go back to the REAL WORLD and he just laughed and said "I thought this was the real world?" Isn't that so true, our perspective and where we are, at that very moment is our REAL WORLD. I was envious on the slow and peaceful pace that they were living, it is just more focused and calm. I was so glad that we took the time to go there and get a fresh perspective.
My kids were glad that we took this trip because they didn't have to do Spring House Cleaning this year. I can't tell you when we have ever missed it. It has been our yearly tradition for YEARS, we clean everything. Every room, every cabinet, every drawer and the floor the blinds and on and on. But this year, I just didn't have the energy to even think about it. I know the older kids are probably thinking, too bad mom didn't feel that way when we were home? But actually I loved doing it every year with them. They would ask me often, tell me why we have to do Spring House cleaning every year? My response was ....well, my mom made us do it every year and so I thought I was suppose to carry on the tradition." Did you like it they said? "Absolutely not, I thought it was a form of torture, but since I lived to tell about it, I thought I should pass this tradition on? But I do love the feel of having such a clean and orderly home." I then reminded them that some day when they have kids they can do the same to them, some how that didn't make them feel any better. :) But it will!
The sad news that I haven't broken to them yet is that some time by the end of the summer we are going to have to do it any way. But why burst their bubble now? :)
I realized when we were coming home today, that I really needed this get away for the rest and relaxation but also for the Spring House Cleaning I got to do... in my head. I am so ready to put things away that I don't need to worry or think about any more. I need to de-clutter the many decisions that are going on in my mind too. So I guess I did do a bit of Spring House Cleaning in a a way, a good way.
I read a quote today and thought this went with my feelings today...
"FIRST I WAS DYING TO FINISH HIGH SCHOOL AND START COLLEGE. AND THEN I WAS DYING TO FINISH COLLEGE AND START WORKING. AND THEN I WAS DYING TO MARRY AND HAVE CHILDREN. AND THEN I WAS DYING FOR MY CHILDREN TO GROW OLD ENOUGH FOR SCHOOL SO I COULD RETURN TO WORK. AND THEN I WAS DYING TO RETIRE. AND NOW, I AM DYING...AND SUDDENLY I REALIZE I FORGOT TO LIVE. ___Anonymous
Now, I am NOT dying, but having Cancer does make you remember on a daily basis how mortal you are and that you need to prioritize things in your life and really learn to live and so that is what my daily goal is! Thanks for believing in me. Good night!