The sun is out and it is Sunday and I am grateful. I get to go to church again today, there have been so many weeks that I didn't go, that I am now looking forward to each one. What to wear is still a big issue for me, especially since it is getting warmer out. I look and feel much more secure with a hundred layers on. Oh well, I will have to start looking for something to wear soon. I think this is the week that I will finally get to go pick out a new prosthetic and bra. I finally with the help of a friend, just sewed my own pockets in a sports bra and have been just adding my batting filled ME inside but... that isn't as natural looking as I would like and so....whatever, I need to just look forward to getting a more normal looking figure....:)
This has been a hard week emotionally, things have been going on that are tugging at my heart and much of them if not all of them, I really can't do anything about...and that hurts! I am trying to remember all the counsel I give my kids about turning your problems over to your Heavenly Father and knowing that after you have done all you can do, then you need to have faith and hope and just wait. That too is hard to do. This is one of the quotes that I shared with a family member who was struggling, it is good for me to always remember this too. I wrote it down in my journal a while ago and I don't remember who wrote it, sorry about that.
"LIFE IS TRICKY. IT IS FILLED WITH GLORIOUS MOMENTS AS WELL AS TIME OF PURGING, PENETRATING DISAPPOINTMENT. THERE ARE DAYS DESIGNED TO NEARLY CRUSH US UNLESS WE HAVE THE ASSURANCE THAT WE ARE NOT ALONE IN THIS LIFE.
WE NEED TO KNOW NOT ONLY THAT GOD IS AWARE OF US BUT THAT HE WILL HELP US -IF WE BELIEVE IN AND SEEK AFTER HIM. WE CAN EXPECT TO HAVE CHALLENGES, DIFFICULT DECISIONS, AND MOMENTS OF SHEER TERROR. IT IS OUR FAITH IN GOD THE FATHER AND HIS SON JESUS CHRIST THAT WILL FILL US WITH PEACE AND HOPE, EVEN AMIDST UNCERTAINTY.
FAITH PROCEEDS HOPE, AND OPTIMISM IS THE OUTGROWTH OF HOPE!"
So I am going to try and remember this wisdom this coming week. I worry about things that I can't change and what I should be doing is making sure that I am doing all that I can, and just pray and have faith on the rest. Things always do work out, not always the way we want them to, but they do work out for our best interest and the interest of those we love.
Have a wonderful Sabbath and thanks again for your friendship and support.
"I BELIEVE EVERY PERSON HAS A HEART AND IF YOU CAN REACH IT, YOU CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE." __ Uli Derickson