It seems to me, that just when you think you have something figured out in your life, then boom...something goes wrong, or something changes; and you have to try to figure out a totally different way to handle the situation. I guess that is what parenthood is all about. You sorta think you have figured out how to raise, teach or handle one of your children, and then you have another one and they are totally different. What you did with them may not be the thing to do for the next child, so as parents you realize you are STILL LEARNING with each child and each situation! It doesn't really get easier, it is just gets different. What technique worked for one, won't work for the other and so once again... you are back to square one.
I have to admit, that even though I am so totally lost at times on what to do, I am very grateful that I can go to my Heavenly Father in prayer and receive that answer. Not always is it immediate, not always is it even what I prayed for; but always I know beyond a shadow of a doubt ...that it is exactly what the Lord wants me to experience at the time. I also know there is always a lesson closely entwined in this problem or trial. The hardest part is to be patient and worthy to hear that still small voice.
Yes, when my kids were small I thought I would never survive all the physical demands that came with that age, then as teenagers I thought I would never survive the attitudes and mouthing that come with that age; and now as a Mother of older children, I wonder if I will survive the heartaches and struggles that they go through? The consequences seems sooooooooooo much bigger now.
Still I know where I can find the peace that I need, and that is down on my knees. It is in the scriptures that I need to read and search more diligently. Being a parent is a tough job, but at least I know it is one where I will never get bored...because I will always still be learning! :)
Good night dear friends.
P.S. Maybe that is why being a Grandparent is so much easier!