Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Falling apart!

Many times in my blog I have shared with you my BIGGER THAN ME DAYS! Yes, those are the days when I just couldn't  seem to handle things any more, or when I was too scared to think; or too tired to move. I have always tried to allow myself those BIGGER THAN ME DAYS. I tried to remember that everyone has them and it's ok. What is not ok is have them day after day without any hope or faith, that things will get better. Then I believe you (or I ) have a problem, and may need the help of someone else. Asking for help is ok too, nothing wrong with realizing you can't do it all, or all the time.  
So tonight when I was looking for something to write about, I came across this article and thought ....hey I am not the only one who has Bigger Than Me days or days where (as they say) you are falling apart. Why is it that misery loves company? That is another old saying isn't it? But I do believe there is some truth in it, I actually feel better when I realize I am not the only person to have experienced this or that. Just knowing that you are not alone, helps you get over some of the struggles you are having.
We don't always have to be strong. Sometimes our strength is expressed in being vulnerable. Sometimes we need to fall apart to regroup and stay on track. We all have days when we cannot push any harder, cannot hold back self-doubt, cannot stop focusing on fear, cannot be strong.
There are days when we cannot focus on being responsible. Sometimes we cry in front of people. We expose our tiredness, irritability, or anger. Those days are okay.
Part of taking care of ourselves means we give ourselves permission to "fall apart" when we need to. We do not need to be perpetual towers of strength. We ARE strong. We have proven that our strength will continue if we allow ourselves the courage to feel scared, weak, and vulnerable when we need to experience those feelings.
Today, help me to know that it is okay to allow myself to be human. Help me not to feel guilty or punish myself when I need to "fall apart."

--- Author Unknown

Today, was not a falling apart day, or a bigger than me day. Today was a good day, oh I am still struggling with my energy and my aching body but...I was healthy enough to teach my class today so... I am a happy girl! Tired, but happy!
I hope if you experience one of these Bigger than me or falling apart days, that you will be patient with yourself and that you will never give up hope faith that tomorrow will be a better day! Then open up your blinds (tomorrow morning of course) and enjoy the beautiful world we live in!
Good night dear friends.

"Show me someone who has done something worthwhile, and I’ll show you someone who has overcome adversity." ~Lou Holtz

"The friend in my adversity I shall always cherish most. I can better trust those who helped to relieve the gloom of my dark hours than those who are so ready to enjoy with me the sunshine of my prosperity."   ~Ulysses S. Grant

"Adversity is a fact of life. It can’t be controlled. What we can control is how we react to it. " ~Unknown

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