As you can see, the MRI machine below is the one that you have to go all the way inside the tube to take photos for a check up, to make sure I don't have cancer again. My last experience wasn't very good and it too way too long, plus a few other things that caused me to almost lose it when I was inside there. Most people like I mentioned before, take medication to make them relaxed enough to be able to handle going in there. Since I don't handle medicine well, I just have to go to my Happy Place.
I had a dream last night that while I was in the machine, the electricity went off and then the fire alarm went off and everyone left the building, and I was stuck in there and couldn't get out. I am not even sure you could wiggle yourself out of there so.... needlesstosay, I was praying hard, that I could reach my Happy Place and stay there until we were done today.
The technician I had today was a man, that is a bit embarrassing but he was great, very kind, compassionate and sympathetic, I found after talking to him that he too was a Cancer Survivor...so he did understand the anxiety that I was having. But all in all I did it today, and hopefully when they get the results back in a couple of days, there will be nothing to report! Thanks for all your thoughts and prayers, it really is a bit tougher to do than one would think.
They were an hour late getting me into my appointment, there was a patient in there who had to have more imaging, I personally know that isn't a good thing. I saw her face when she came out, she looked scared to death. I remember being in her shoes just two short years ago. You go in for a routine exam and then it ends up when they need to do one more image and then another couple of mammogram's and then you need to come back and do some biopsies...yuck, those were scary days. When I passed the lady in the dressing room, I just said a little prayer for her. She probably had to have a million thoughts going through her head, that kind of news is hard to take. I just wanted to give her a hug and tell her that I would pray for her. But I didn't bother her, I just said a silent prayer. Cancer...it is a life altering experience!
Good night dear friends...thank you again!
"There is much in the world to make us afraid. There is much more in our faith to make us unafraid." ~Frederick W. Cropp
"He has not learned the lesson of life who does not every day surmount a fear." ~Ralph Waldo Emerson
"Fear is static that prevents me from hearing myself." ~Samuel Butler