Saturday, January 29, 2011

Counting once again, but my numbers have changed!

Below is a photo of my granddaughter and I at the hospital, almost two years ago. I was on my way to once again, have another radiation treatment. I was counting down how many more treatments I had to go. I was beginning to get burnt worse each day, it was all I could do to get up, get dressed and drive to the hospital. Sometimes the fatigue and burn was so bad, I asked family or friends to take me, so I didn't have to use my left arm to drive. Life was a bit more enjoyable when Angie came with me. She always makes me smile and of course she couldn't wait to get her Chocolate Shake ( Ensure ) in the waiting room!

I realized the other day when I looked at the January 2011 calendar that it would have been 9 years that I would have been cancer free, that is, until my second diagnosis in November of 2008. Now I am counting once again, the numbers have changed...I am back to 2 years! Is that ok? I guess, that certainly is life isn't it?

Today I made an appointment for my 6 month check up at Bellevue Medical Imaging. Six months ago I had my mammogram, now this time they will do a MRI on my right breast , it is done with an IV inserted in my arm first, then they also will scan my left chest wall. I remember doing that over a year ago and it wasn't a pleasant experience, many of the women take the Vallium that they offer to help you relax. I don't do very well on medicine but after having the test, I definitely know why some women take it. I almost cried making the appointment today, I guess that's ok too?

I will continue to keep counting all the minutes, hours, days and years that my Heavenly Father gives me. I will be grateful for each one of them, and try my hardest not to waste any of them. Yes, life is hard but oh so worth it! Thank you for always listening and being there to support and help me through these tough times.


"The most important thing in illness is never to lose heart."  ~Nikolai Lenin

"Feed your faith and your fears will starve to death."  ~Author Unknown

"The greatest mistake in the treatment of diseases is that there are physicians for the body and physicians for the soul, although the two cannot be separated."  ~Plato

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