I have to admit, just reading my post two years ago, still makes me a little nervous. I remember well that day, and the days that followed my mastectomy. I have survived it, and that is good. It actually took way more of an emotional toll on me that I thought it would. I really didn't think it would be that tough, but it was. The pain was bad, the shock of seeing my body cut up like that was tough and the fear of once again, trying to battle cancer ( with all the decisions that come with that ) , was much harder than I ever imagined. But I am still here and doing well. I don't the sadness about the loss of my breast, as much as I used to. And I sorta feel like normal, on most days. I won't write tonight because I felt like I should let you read again, my post from 2 years ago today. So if you or anyone you know is going through your own battle with cancer, that you can know you aren't alone. Cancer is tough, but you are tougher, don't forget that.
I am so glad that is behind me. I am so grateful that I am still here and getting more healthy each year. I am thankful to have had another year with my family and friends. Yes, time does heal things, and I am so glad it does!
November 12, 2008
Today is the day! I guess ready or not I am going in this morning for a mastectomy. Having a mastectomy is what I always thought would be the worst nightmare for any woman. But we have studied, researched and prayed soooooo much about it and realize it is the best choice for me and my health to do this. Having two tumors really narrowed my options. No matter what road I go down next, we realized that we needed to get these cancerous tumors out.
We interviewed different doctors and have decided to go with Marion Johnson from Evergreen Hospital, she seemed very knowledgeable and what can I say ...she has got to be good, because she has the same name as my mom ! My mom has been gone now for almost 8 years and there is never a day that goes by that I don't wish that I could see her or at least talk to her. I have heard my whole life that those who have already passed away are not really that far away from us, actually closer than we think. I pray today that my mom will be close, I could use all the help I can get!
So with that decision we have all decided to WEAR PINK today and think positive. I heard the quote TRIUMPH IS JUST THE "UMPH" AFTER THE TRY! I have a feeling that is just exactly what I am going to have to do today. I am trying not to be scared and trying not to be discouraged and will give it a little more effort and umph today and for the next few coming weeks to conquer one of the biggest challenges in my life.
Well, I need to go get ready. Once again...thanks for you love, concern and prayers. I could probably use a few extra ones just in case and if you want you can join us in ...WEARING PINK ! Love, Lynn
"Learn to get in touch with the silence within yourself, and know that everything in this life has purpose. There are no mistakes, no coincidences. All events are blessings given to us to learn from." ~ Elisabeth Kubler-Ross
"Sometimes your only available transportation is a leap of faith." ~ Margaret Shepherd