I have always heard that Mothers are the heart of the Home. I do believe that is true.
Yesterday, I went to visit my dear friend, whose Mom ( also my friend ) passed away this August from Cancer. As I walked into their home, I realized that although the home looked nice, it missed the homey touches that their wife and Mother always provided. We didn't stay long, just needed to drop something off, but it was different to go in their home and not see my friend's smiling face. I miss her. There was a definite void, not that we mentioned it, but you could really feel the difference and that made me sad. When I got home and out of my kid's sight, I just broke down and cried. I wondered what my home would look and feel like, if I died. I worried about my kids and how they would do. How do you handle a void that big? How do you handle the loneliness? I know all the answers, but it doesn't seem to make it any easier at the very beginning of such a huge challenge.
When my Mom passed away, I never went back to our Farm house again. When my brother's did, they said it really looked totally different with just Dad living there on his own. I am grateful that I didn't have to experience my home without my Mother there. Yes, the home is totally different without Mom in it.
I hugged my young friend 2 or 3 times, I imagine that she needed it...or maybe I just did! So that is still hanging with me some. Every time I think of them, I tear up. I wish those who still have their Mothers with them, would tell her how much they love and need her. Living without a Mom is really tough. Ok, now my heart is aching again and it is close to the Holidays (that's when I really start missing family) so... I had better close, or at least change the subject.
On a happy note, I was able to go and teach at the Quilt Shop again today. How grateful I am for my up time. It used to be, that I had to be down most of the day and now I am up and out, more often than not...it feels great! I love being around all those incredible ladies and being around all that much beautiful fabric, doesn't hurt either! ( If only I had lots of money to spend there ).
Well thanks for listening dear friends, you are all such a big part of my life...yes each of you! Have a wonderful evening.
"A little girl, asked where her home was, replied, "where mother is."
-- Keith L. Brooks
"A mother holds her children's hands for a while...their hearts forever."
-- Author Unknown
"Children and mothers never truly part -
Bound in the beating of each other's heart."
-- Charlotte Gray