Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Bigger Than Me Day!

For the last few days I have been struggling with a number of things. None that are really critical...yet... they seem like they are. My perspective is narrowed and it seems like everything is hurting my heart lately. I cry at the drop of a hat. (whatever that expression means?) I am homesick for a home that doesn't even exist any more, and only homesick for that home at Christmas time; which seemed happier and safe during the holidays. I am missing my family and friends. I am worried about finances, about my kids, and struggles that they are having. Is any of this new? Not really, just on my mind more lately.
Yes, I have had a few Bigger Than Me Days lately. It really isn't like me but I am praying hard to find the basis of this pain in my heart. Could it be that my Mom passed away at this very time of the year? Is it because my family is more spread out? Is it because we have to make some big purchases soon? It really doesn't matter, everything could be handled if I had my head in the right place. I just sorta honored the Bigger Than Me Day today but realized tonight... I need to work hard to get out of this place. I have tons to be thankful for, incredible friends and family to be thankful for, a job that I LOVE and a FAITH to remind me of where to go in times of need. So I am going to bed and EXPECT it to be a much better day!
Good night dear friends!

"Take an inventory of your life and look specifically for the blessings large and small, you have recieved."
~ Thomas S. Monson

"We have neighbors to BLESS, children to PROTECT, the poor to UPLIFT, and the truth to DEFEND. We have wrongs to MAKE RIGHT, truths to SHARE, and GOOD TO DO in short, we have a life of DEVOTED DISCIPLESHIPto give in demonstrating OUR LOVE of the LORD."   ~ Jeffrey R. Holland