Heartbreaker

Motherhood even though it is has been my full time job for almost 27 years, still I find aspects of it that are hard for me. Some things you get used to, and others still hurt your heart every time. For example... a kid leaving home for the first time! That is one that is very hard on a mother's heart, especially if you like the kid! :) Lauren is heading to college in 3 days and I cry when I go to sleep thinking about it and I wake up and do the same. I know you are probably thinking, this is your third child you should be used to it! But I am not. I remember it just like it was yesterday when we dropped Amy off to college and when Brad left for school too! I just knew that my heart would break in two!

I remember a dear friend of mine who was getting ready to send her first and only child off to kindergarten. She would cry when she would just talk about it, I assured her that she would some how make it past this, and soon enjoy her time for herself and the growth that she saw in her child. She did survive and now, has another child to go through that again with. That is what motherhood is all about though. You do live to tell about it, but then there is always another situation or child to go through it again with. Yes, motherhood is NOT FOR SISSIES !

Those of you who are reading this and are EMPTY NESTERS, have already been there and done that. I could sure use your advice. I am not quite there yet, but still this is part of the process that will get me ready when Jeff and I have an empty house. I am grateful that my son and daughter-in-law have moved in with us for 4 months while they do their internships here. So I lose one and gain two....I am not complaining!  Still having Lauren leave is going to put a empty spot in our home and our hearts, she was a handful to raise up until she became a teenager, and then she has been a real treat to have around. ( Most kids do it the other way around, but Lauren was never quite like anyone we had ever met! :) So please bare with me as I try to go through this next challenge in my life as a mom.

I hope soon my blog will be up and running again and we can stay in touch. I pray that the holidays were memorable for each of you and that  you were able to enjoy the true meaning of Christmas. Thanks for being my friends and family.

 

" Do not pray for tasks equal to your abilities, but pray for abilities equal to your tasks. Then the performance of your tasks will be no miracle, but you will be the miracle."

" You never know what a girl is worth, you'll have to wait and see;

But every woman in a noble place, a girl once used to be." ~ Thomas S. Monson

“ The whole process of raising a family is one of perfecting our own lives. That which we transmit consciously and unconsciously to our children in their rearing in the home and in the community must be the best within us.”  ~Henry D. Moyle