Today started off hard, because my thoughts and all the WHAT IFS were keeping me busy while I was trying so hard not to worry. I had many dear friends who offered to go with me ( since Jeff is out of town ). The dear friend that took me was just so sweet and comforting, and of course I had phone calls and text from my kids and friends telling me to not worry... and that they would keep me in their prayers. Jeff had left a sweet note on the table before he left this morning for the airport and it said " Lynn, be courageous for your test.", as soon as I read it, it made me cry. Because I know that is exactly what I need to be ...full of courage and faith." Sometimes though, the fear does get the best of me. Then right before I left for my appointment, I found a sticky note that I had tucked away some where ...it was from my Mom and probably written over 20 years ago and it said "....think what a special spirit you are and keep your chin up! " I remember her sending that in a package she sent me years ago, no doubt I was going through a trial then too. Anyway, I feel so grateful and blessed, I feel like I had a lot of support and help today.
There was one lady there today, who had been there for 4 hours, and was still having more tests done.... I remembered those days, so I prayed for this lady ( didn't know her name ) but she talked a lot about her granddaughter and what she wanted to do with her for her birthday. I pray that she gets to do that with her, and that she will have the courage, if she has to face Cancer and hopefully many friends and family like me... who truly hold her up through it ...the whole way! Good night dear friends.