Saturday, April 2, 2011

The Girl I used to be.

I read this poem and thought it is true in some ways for me but then in other ways...I think my life is even better than I dreamed. Having come from an abusive childhood, I didn't really dream a lot. Reality seemed to always get in my way. But I did tell myself "if you ever make it out of this situation and if you ever get married and have a family, you have got to make sure this type of thing NEVER happens to your kids." With that determination I slowly looked toward the future hoping it would be different and praying with all my heart that it would and that I could have the faith and courage to make it so! I am grateful and blessed to say that life did turn out better than my childhood and that I have been able to stop the abuse that for generations which plagued our family.

So when I see that girl I used to be, I smile and tell her to have courage, don't give up hope. Her life is going to be great, she is going to meet the most incredible man and they will fall in love. Then they will have 4 beautiful and incredible children and yes...they all will be safe and happy! Yes, she will have lot's of wonderful things to look forward to.


The Girl I Used to Be
by: Author Unknown,

She came tonight as I sat alone,
the girl I used to be,
And she gazed at me with her earnest eyes,
and questioned reproachfully,
Have you forgotten the many plans,
and hopes I had for you?
The great career,
the splendid fame,
all the wonderful things to do?
Where is the mansion of stately height,
with all of its gardens rare?
The silken robes that I dreamed for you,
and the shining jewels in your hair?
And as she spoke,
I was very sad,
for I wanted her pleased with me,
This slender girl from the shadowy past,
the girl I used to be.

So gently rising,
I took her hand and guided her up the stairs,
Where peacefully sleeping,
my babies lay, innocent, sweet and fair,
And I told her that these are my only gems,
and precious they are to me,
That silken robe is my motherhood,
of costly simplicity,
And my mansion of stately height is love,
and the only career I know,
Is serving each day in these sheltered walls,
for the dear ones who come and go,
And as I spoke to my shadowy guest,
she smiled through her tears at me,
And I saw the woman that I am now,
pleased the girl that I used to be!

"There is always one moment in childhood when the door opens and lets the future in."  ~ Deepak Chopra

"We worry about what a child will become tomorrow, yet we forget that he is someone today."  ~Stacia Tauscher

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