Today I worked a long time on editing my book. Krystal will do the final editing, but since I have so much information and so many days to cover, I am trying to go through each one and see if there is anything that I would want to take out. I was amazed at how fast the feelings came rushing back to me, as I reread my first diagnosis with cancer.
It had been 7 years since my last cancer and so everyone thought I was pretty safe...for it not to return. They say 5 years is sorta the magical number, if you make it 5 years then your chances of getting it again is a lot lower. I am here to tell you that no one really knows that much about Cancer. I know there has been progress and there are still new statistics coming in every day but...the more I talk to others who are 2nd and 3rd time survivors, I realize every story is different and no one really understands why or how it came back. Especially when they did EVERYTHING the Doctor ordered.
I cried most of the time I was reading and suppose to be editing. It was much harder than I thought to do this. The emotions were closer to the surface than I thought, and yet I felt a bit of pride that I am at least progressing some. Maybe not as far or fast as I had hoped but...I am progressing. Some days are faster and better than others.
As I read the lessons from life that I had already experienced, I was amazed at the love and support from so many of you. There were days that I did nothing but write in my blog but it gave me something to look forward to and someone to share my lessons with.
Thank you for all the support and love you continue to be in my life. Yes, life has been tough but... there have been many wonderful lessons learned.
Good night dear friends!
"Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow" ~ Albert Einstein
"You learn something every day if you pay attention." ~Ray LeBlond